Check My French

Who’s there when I need them and has ALWAYS (not just when they feel like it) been there? Daddy! And of course Jada and Babe. Those guys have given me their last; walked long distances to get something that I needed because I was sick; helped me with school work; been an ear for my problems. I could keep going because there is no end to this list. And so far Laci has been really good at being a support system or at least making me feel better. Yup. Those are the people that I love. Those are the ONLY people that I will do anything for.

i lied. juts had to drop my summer classes because well, the money that i’ve been waiting on still hasn’t arrived. i still have to pay rent; two months already late. i still have to pay my phone bill. gotta make sure that i have some sort of groceries to eat on. and then i have to have gas money in case i need it. oh, and let’s not forget an emergency stash. so now, the past month has been a waste of time. i already feel like shit but if i don’t find something educational or paying, i will feel like i haven’t done shit with my life and that’s not something that i can go through right now. and to top it all off, this mf’er still isn’t here so i can’t even get to the one person who can make me feel any better. i’m so far on edge that i can’t even think straight.

i HATE being on other people’s time. what makes it worse is when the person just generally doesn’t care unless it is surrounded by them. i’m tired of my plans being on hold or having to cancel them or just being flat out late because you want to sit around or do nothing. and you say that you’ll do it for money but even when someone is giving you money you still do it on your time. tf am i giving you anything for if i can’t get there on time? i just wanna fucking scream! but i’m not. gonna cool it. enjoy my evening with my love and my weekend with him tomorrow. just gonna make the best of this fucked up situation i have.